I dream the world will end, in fact I dream this a lot. For such a long time now, I've seen the world end in flames, flood or simply dust. Yet I don't worry.
One of my dearest friend Christine, sadly lost to me at only 34, loved dreams. She was fascinated by them and I'd arrive at her house strung out from a job that didn't fit and a personal life that was unraveling. She had the warmest smile and the deepest eyes.."Tell me about your dreams."
She take careful notes of my dreams, paying attention to the colours, patterns, forms and out of the choatic tangle of weird imagery she would find the truth....that fear I tried so hard to keep under lock and key, the one about never being good enough, always being second best. She'd weave healing words, and sound advice into to the mess and gift me a clear road map for the journey ahead.
The end of the world dream, she told me, was not to be feared. "It is just your subconscious telling you that your are going through great change and your fears and emotions are on a big scale." Change is by it's very nature destructive and that's why it also one of the scariest roads to take. Sometimes we have to change in order to move on, sometimes change leaves us with no choice.
I dreamed of great churning floods and volcanoes belching masses of dark smoke when my father was dying. The dreams have returned and I know it is my fears for my mother and the inevitable change that I have no power over.
I've stepped back from adding to my shop for a while just to take a breather from the network running around and to just let my head rest. In that time I've read The Age of Miracles http://www.amazon.co.uk/Age-Miracles-Karen-Thompson-Walker/dp/0857207253/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1371115778&sr=1-1&keywords=age+miracles It's an amazing book about the changes in a young girl growing up in a dying earth.
This next one is a thoughtful and gripping movie that takes you into the mind of a deeply troubled man and for me captures the quiet, still strength of his wife.
Taking Shelter is not an action packed movie, but to me it is one of the best movies I've seen in a long time. Micheal Shannon is a gifted actor that takes you with him through his fearful dreams and Jessica Chastian is truly believable as a mum to a deaf daughter and a wife dealing with her husband's dark thoughts.
I have still been creating, but I've been more considered in my approach and less happy accident.
This bracelet features hand made charms from
Scorchedearthonetsy, Happyfishshop,Greybirdstudio,Rowansongcraft, Sheribeads and a house-gift from the lovely Tracy of pipnmolly. I've used blackened steel and hammered each link for texture.
This uses a lot of found pieces, a German thimble, religious medal, charms stamped and aged by me, vintage glass and the dog and fossil are from Mayahoney .
Petra drops and heart, bone scrimshaw and copper fern by me.
Bone birds, Grubbi beads and Petra dangles.
Love these vintage bird tags and amazing gold flek lapis lazuli
Last pair for now
Bone elephants, Petra monkeys and cloisonne beads.